After that last post, him and i tried to be friends. Although it hurt me like crazy knowing that he is with someone else I tried to hold it in and keep the friendship.

His gf found out about me and gave him the ultimatum of losing her or me. He chose to lose me.

We stopped talking on the 8th of May and havent spoken since.

He did poke me a few times on facebook but i just removed them.

Yesterday he msg me on msn "hey sally* =[". I just ignored it.

I have became stronger than before, i must admit.

I remember that night when he called me to tell me what his gf said to him when he came over to her house. He cried when i said that i respect what she said and that i am more than happy to let go of our friendship in order for him to keep his relationship.

He can't keep having the best of both worlds and I really wish that he becomes a better person for his gf.

I hope that he will find his morals, goals, religion again. I've prayed every night for him to be a better person...even if that means that he's out of my life forever. I can't bear it knowing what he's become and what he is capable of. I wish that he could just remember how he had felt, how his mother had felt and what they went through when his father cheated on them. Please be a better person, Dai.

I remember that night I'd asked him why he was crying...he said that he doesnt know and that the person who should be crying is me. If he doesnt know why he's crying than he is not worth my tears. Having said that I did cry that night. Max* called me and comfort me for hours. I dont think i would've done it without Max*

But now the problem is that Max* is starting to like me. I'm not ready for a relationship and I dont want to.

Dai is now just a fragment of my memory. Soon he will fade with everything else...

There are no more pain...only memories...